Wednesday, November 19, 2008

4cc gives me a flashback

I was getting Charlie's medicine this morning, which this time around is measured in cc. I had the brief thought that the last time I measured cc it was when Charlie was feeding through his NG tube and I was pumping only a few cc at a time myself. And Charlie was crawling on the floor near me as I was thinking this, and I suddenly was so awash with memories and emotion that I actually started to cry. Charlie as his little preemie 3# self, his wrinkly skin over his too-small bones, the tube up his nose, his long spindly fingers as he squawked like a kitten in his incubator... it all came rushing over me. I scooped Charlie up and just squeezed and squeezed him. I cannot believe how amazing he is.

3 comments:

Cat Hoemke said...

It's truly miraculous the way your story is unfolding. I was hanging out with a 6 week old today who is right around tobo's size at that age and I just couldn't get over how much he's changed...and charlie has traveled so much future...just amazing.

Cat Hoemke said...

future = further... ok time for bed.

michdaug said...

Hey, nice high chair Charlie. You look good in it. Hope all is well.